So the interview process continues… I know it's a blessing to get interviews and call backs in this recession but it is getting a bit taxing with all the traveling back and forth. Let's not forget that I'm a jet-setter that's afraid of flying and I've been having to fly back & forth almost every week. Weird right? I was called in to interview for a project consulting position with the CDC. The interview was less than ideal. On paper, the job sounded great. I aced my phone screen with the recruiter and based on the details that he provided, I decided that the job was worth the effort of me traveling back to Atlanta again to meet with the director in person. I'm not even gonna talk about the fact the my flight was delayed for 1 hour and 40 minutes or the fact that I had to wait in line at Hertz for 2 hours to get a rental, or the fact that I didn't arrive at my hotel until 2 a.m. the day of my interview… No, there will be another post for that so back to the issue at hand.
I arrived at the office which was less impressive than I expected… I told myself, no biggie. I won't be working at the office so it doesn't matter anyway. I proceeded to meet with the interviewer whose way too comfortable demeanor made me uncomfortable. He was practically reclined in his desk chair with his legs crossed and nearly propped up on the desk. He proceeds to tell me all of the ugly details about the job; All of the critical things which the recruiter should have mentioned, but conveniently left out. The pay was horrible and the work environment seemed like it would be extremely chaotic and stressful. I went through the motions anyway and I can tell that the interviewer was impressed however I knew that job would not be a long term fit for me. Even after knowing this, I still continued pursuing the job in my mind, despite the fact that I knew I wouldn't last six months at best. After reflecting over the job for the rest of my stay, I decided that I don't want it anymore. I was planning to email the recruiter on Monday to remove myself from the running since I was one of the top candidates however, imagine my surprise when I opened my email box and they told me that I was not selected and the project had been shelved due to funding issues. Oh really? Seriously?! For some reason, this really pissed me off. They had me come in for the position when they knew that funding and other issues were possibly not in place for me to take the job even if I wanted it. Unprofessional. As I sat in the airport waiting for my flight (after another delay) I began to ponder why do we get upset over the loss of things that we never really wanted in the first place? We've all been there. It can be a job, a house, a relationship…whatever. Maybe you felt drab & lackluster about the whole thing from the jump but when it ends we get mad. Shouldn't we be relieved since it was clearly not a fit for either party? Is it the loss of job/relationship that bothers us or is it really ego or hating to lose in general?
Personally, I can say that I have started to recognize the mediocrity in life and I am not afraid to say I don't want it anymore. I'm not setting myself up for failure by accepting less than what works for me whether it be a job, relationship, or anything else. So if that means I have to be single and jobless for a little while longer then so be it. When it happens, it will be worth it.
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